Chapter 40- Facing Loss
“S-Sai?” My emotions melt. “Why?” I focus on him and him only. “He never… I never… we never… thought…” I blink and relax. My face burns and my hand twitches. I curl them up into nervous fists. When he pulls away we both blush profusely.
My world fades away until it’s unobtainable once again. Then I lose all consciousness. When I open my eyes, Sai’s looking down at me while Kampo runs over. Washimaru looks our way and then turns back around, now tending to another Shinobi. “I’m off.” Sai says like we didn’t just kiss.
I wait for ten minutes, still watching Kampo blush and giggle whenever I smile. “So why did that happen?” She asks sighing.
“I- I don’t know.”
“Does he know your family?”
“Sort of, we went on a mission together not too long ago. Well he followed me until it was too late to turn back.”
“Sounds romantic!” She shakes her head left to right and holds her hands together. A loud crash is heard towards where Naruto is and I frown. “I can’t believe I almost forgot what was going on here.”
“Yea, same here.”
“Do you think your parents are OK?” Kampo smiles encouragingly.
“I don’t know. My dad’s very important in my clan, so I think he’s OK. Mom? She’s also my Sensei so I’m not too sure either.”
“Why is your father so important?” She gasps. “Wait… what did you say your parents’ names were?”
“Mizu and Kokoro Tsuki.” She bites her lip and replaces the cloth on my forehead.
“A-and your name?” I’m confused as to why she’s asking with caution.
“Kaya. Kaya Tsuki.” She stops immediately as if time has indeed froze right in front of me.
“K-Kampo?” I ask nervously. “Are you all right?”
“Yes…” She whispers “… oh my gosh!” She suddenly screams. “You’re the daughter of the Tsuki-shi leader?!” I slightly nod, still being just a little surprised.
“I am his daughter, but…” My voice trails off, “… I want to remain that way.” I look Kampo straight in the eye. “Don’t you understand? I need to go find them!”
She smiles. “Well, princess. Far be it from me to order you around.”
“Great… another person calling me ‘princess’ or acting like I’m royalty.” I roll my eyes. “Please don’t be so formal towards me.”
Kampo blushes again. “All right, if that’s what you wish.”
I sigh. “Just stay here, I’ll be back.” Shakily but affectively I try to run. Trips, stumbles, and falls are what I get for my efforts. My bare, but bandaged, foot is starting to irritate me now. I step on stones and cringe. I run into trees and hug them for balance. I see death and shed a few tears for the victims.
I search for Sai, Mom and Dad. No sign of any of them. I gasp for air and sit down on the hard rubble, taking in Naruto’s ongoing fight. But what I see brings back the horror of cruel reality. He’s pinned to the ground with rods that stick into the ground through his body. His hands, shoulders, back and legs are all restrained with those rods. And standing in front of him is Hinata Hyuga. “Hinata.” I whisper. He’s yelling at her, probably for her own sake. She replies and her expression softens. I catch a few other things and watch her own battle with Pain unfold.
Hinata twirls around and kicks a couple rods, breaking them in half. Pain shamefully blows her away, and I want to scream. She continuously tries to free Naruto, but ends up getting beat bloody. When she’s on the ground, unable to move. I turn away and hear my own heart cry out.
A loud blast takes place afterwards, revealing a huge and powerful wind. Grabbing onto the wreckage I strain to not get blown away with the other debris. When it’s over I see Naruto in the scariest form he’s capable of. As the wind almost blows everyone away I whisper, “The Nine-Tailed Fox…” My eyes widen and my hands tremble. “No… please Naruto.”
I decide to keep going, time’s running out. A few yards away I spot someone lying dead. “Should I go over there?” My mind balances the possible consequences. “I’ll just pass by.” But when I get closer I realize that I know that person… that man. I gasp and breakdown. “Daddy!” I scream. “No!” He must’ve been blown away or purposely thrown, because his naginata sword pierced him all the way through his chest. “This isn’t real.” I refuse. “M-Mom?!” I look around and stand up. “Sai?! Mom?!” I start to hyperventilate, and fall to my knees. “Help.”
How long has time passed since I first saw him? Lying dead, helpless, gone. “Dearly departed…” I think as I continue to lay on his chest, wanting to feel his heartbeat or his breathing. “I’m not ready. I can’t take over. Mom will need help, and I don’t have the experience to do so.” I’m having trouble breathing in between cries. “Didn’t you know that you could die? What were you thinking when you stared death in the face? Was I on your mind? Chiemaru? Mom? Mimi? Maybe Aiko?”
I feel a hand on my shoulder and quickly yank out my katana, turn around and narrow my eyes. “Kaji?” He gives me a sad look while I notice Tetsuro. Kaji holds Tetsuro up and I immediately know what happened. “Mom…”
“Kokoro-Sensei tried.” He explained.
“She went for the team.” My first reaction was much bed rest, but the message in Kaji’s eyes was too loud for someone like me to ignore.
Kaji then places Tetsuro down and stands over my father’s body. He slightly bows his head, places his hands together and closes his eyes. “Don’t do that!” I shout.
He’s surprised by my sudden outburst and gives me a scared look. I grit my teeth at him and feel myself shaking. I’m about to take a swing at him when someone grabs my ankle. “Daddy?” I whisper when I look down.
“Kaya, stop.” Tetsuro demands. “It won’t change anything.”
“I’m about to break.” I whisper low enough for some to hear.
“I know.” Kaji replies. “I’m sorry, but you’re not the only one.” I look at him and don’t see the laid back, lazy, careless Kaji anymore. Now I see a strong, reliable, Shinobi with no family. I can tell by his face that his dog was killed. Kaji’s an orphan. And his dog, Tomodachi/Friend, was his only family member. “Tomodachi wasn’t our only loss.” He looks at Tetsuro, who is now lying unconscious on the ground. “His whole family is lying somewhere in critical condition. His little sister, little brother and Dad were all severely hurt.”
“This has to stop.” I can’t help but keep staring at my father’s corpse. When I turn around to face him I reach down and pull his naginata sword out of his chest. Kaji gasps and bites his lip. “Don’t cry.” I command. “Where did you see Mom?” He points behind him.
“About thirty yards. Not… not too far.”
“Thank you.” I say before I start running.
“What’re you going to do Kaya?” I don’t stop. “Kaya?! Kaya!” His voice drowns out, and I know he can’t follow me.
“I’m sorry Kaji, but I need you to stay strong for the time being. I can’t be there for you… stay strong.”